I love my fucking life btw, it cant be fucking better, this life is fucking awesome, its just sometimes I think that life has a mind of its own and then like life looks at me and he is like "Fuck he has it so easy, everything comes to him as he wishes, lets fuck with him a bit".
I dont mind u know, for one particular reason cause there isnt shit life can threw at me and il be like fucking giving up on it, it just makes me wanna live even more. Cause seriously if I had it all then I would probably blow my brains out of fucking boredom. So I like it when life thinks of me and throws me another bullshit to deal with. I just fucking smile and I know shit cant touch me, u know why? Cause I couldn't fucking care less.
Now when I said that, I can tell you what actually happened. You know my computer, the badest fucking machine I had till now for gaming. WHICH I JUST FUCKING BOUGHT! Well its fucking destroyed, not completely - I guess it can be worse. There could have been a fucking earthquake and it could swallow my house down to the depths of hell. That would definitely be worse.
What exactly happened was that I had a certain person in my room and I left my room and went downstairs to take a dump. I know, fucked up - I mean what kind of person I am that I let somebody else touch my fucking computer. Like I was asking for it, I wanted it to get fucking destroyed. Never trust anybody with your fucking gaming rig, this shit aint a joke.
So this person had a glass of water on the table and I guess in some weird way that person was able to knock the glass of water on the table, by the time I came back the monitor shut off. Now this is my stupidity, I didnt actually know that water was in computer. Person did said that they spilled water on the table, I just didnt fucking connect the dots, how fucking dumb can I be? Monitor is off, for some weird reason and then water spilled on the table and me to not connect that. O I fucking deserve this. I deserve to fucking write this now on this shitty ass laptop like there is no tomorrow cause Im fucking dumb.
Now u see Zixx did what he was supposed to do, turned monitor off and on and was like hm LETS FUCKING RESTART IT, how about FUCKING NO ZIXX! WHY DID U FUCKING DO IT?
Next thing that happened was that this smoke of burning flesh filled the room and that was it, I knew I was fucked. I knew my life will change 4ever. To the fucking worse ofc.
To make it all fucking more worse, u see Im fucking laughing at this shit now so much lol, cause its so fucking funny!!!! Ok listen, so before I went to take a shit, I wanted to tell that person to care for fucking glass of water but I didnt, I just moved the glass and left. Ow ffs...
Another mistake I did was that I fucking bought a computer with an open top for the vent cover, actually there were 2 computers I wanted and this one looked way more bling so I took this one, so dumb as fuck! Why didnt I take the more expensive one and with better fucking stats. Il tell u why cause its all about the fucking pixels, dosent matter if its fucking awesome, if it dosent look awesome then its not!111
Other shit I did, I have this fabulous computer with fucking lights and shit inside and I put it down next to the table?! AM I FUCKING MENTAL WHY THE FUCK DIDNT I PUT IT ON THE GOD DAMN TABLE FOR ALL THE WORLD TO SEE IT?!Il tell you why cause Im a dumb fuck thats why...
Now I cant blame this person that did this cause it was an accident and it happens, shit fucking happens. I can tell that person all the worst shit in the world but would it bring my fucking computer back from the dead, ofc not. So whats the point? I was mad, gosh I was fucking furious if I thought that person did it on purpose oh my days... But but it was an accident Im sure of it, I can only blame myself for being now on this laptop where even skype turns off when both partys have cameras on.
I had my computer for 2 months, more like month and some days but damn we had good times together. We played games and were on skype at the same time, was so amazing. We laughed at the videos, watched movies together - when I was sad computer always knew how to cheer me up. It was a perfect connection and now when I look at it its just there on the floor looking at me all fucking dead and I think to myself could this been avoided if I just stopped for a sec and thought shit trough...
Before this computer I had to have one computer for skype and the other one for games and graphics all the way low and it still laged sometimes. Was so like =( and now I dont even have a second computer to run the skype, cant even play games. Nothing... Its all gone.
U see my mom bought me this computer and she took it like on 1 year payment which sucks. I have no money to repair it and if I tell this my mom - Im screwed in so many ways cause I had shit like that happen once before. I cant listen to her telling me TOLD YOU TOLD YOU, U NEVER LISTEN BLA BLA FUCKING BLA. I do never listen!!!!!111 where was my fucking brain there? ... ffs...
My sister earns 500 euro a month and she is not even fucking 18 and there is me fucking 25 soon and I earn yea fucking 0!!11111 I DESERVE THIS SO MUCH!!!!!!1
Life is fucking funny lol, seriously how can I not laugh at all this, LIKE HOW CAN I NOT FUCKING LAUGH.
I have warranty for this computer for 2 years, ofc its not covered with water dmg and I didnt know this but u know what fuckers do, they put stickers inside of the computer that can fucking tell if there was water connection to the computer - HOW FUCKING TWISTED AND EVIL IS THAT!? CANT EVEN FUCKING MAKE A SIMPLE FRAUD THESE DAYSS!!!!!!11
I dunno what died in it but it smelled so fucking bad, knowing life its probably a fucking motherboard, or could be just all! ALL FUCKING WENT TO SHIT YEA GONNA THINK LIKE THAT SINCE ITS PROBABLY FUCKING TRUE!
here comes the worst part...u ready? I am a stupid fucking idiot cause I DIDNT BACK UP!!!!!!!!!
FUCKING DIDNT DO A BACKUPPPPPPPPPPP LIKE OMFG FUCKING JUST KILL ME
HAD PHOTOS ON THAT HARD DRIVE FROM WHEN I WAS 15TEEN and my sisters recordings and all the pictures, like 30 gbs...
AND OMG ALL MY WORLD OF WARCRAFT SCREENSHOOTS. MY FAMILY PHOTOSSSSSSSS
That shit, u know how much that costs? That shit is priceless to me...No money u could offer me and be like I wanna buy your hard-drive, nah dude I would tell you 2 fuck off without even thinking it over.
GOSH I hope my hard drive didnt die...Why didnt I back it up, why? Always fucking back up, always... Always save the fucking game before u go in the room!!!111111111 ffs
I am an idiot and its ok, fuck you life, fuck you!!!!1 fucking fuck you so much!11
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Im just reliving all the moments now, after that person went home and I came back, I was sting in my chair for like an hour, that person was apologizing saying how sorry and all but I couldnt hear anything. I was in shock.
I just didnt believe that happened, thanks for my friend that talked to me on skype at that moment to calm me down.
I was in such a mess.
Missed an exam cause I had 4 homework's on the computer that I had to bring to be able to write the exam.
I dunno, its just all went to shit.
Lol but Im not mad at all cause u know what lol, the day il be mad at all the shit that happens to me will be the day I will die. I laugh at you life, U think u can fuck with me? LOL BRING IT ONNNNNNN
BRING IT THE FUCK ON
THIS IS THE BEST U GOT
COME ON BITCH DO YOUR WORST
FUCK YOU!!!!!!11111
FUCK YOU SO FUCKING MUCH
U know the good part :)))))))))))
U LISTENING
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I HAVE THIS BOTTLE OF WATER!!111 OW DAYS u see I thought about my revenge and I still dont know wtf will I do actually with it!!! But that water will fucking pay like there is no tomorrow.
How can you actually destroy water?! thats the shit I cant even do that, I was thinking to spill it in fucking toilet and to piss on it but nah that shit aint enough. I need something epic, something fucking dreadful, I dont want it to be free in pipes. I wanna put it on the fucking moon so its gonna be alone surrounded by rocks 4ever!
Im gonna boil it and freeze it so much TO just to watch it fucking suffer! OW GOD DAMNT THAT WATER WILL NEVER BE FREE!!!! ETERNAL FUCKING PRISON FOR THAT SHIT, IM GONNA PLAY THE WORST FUCKING MUSIC TO HER ALL DAY LONG, ITS GONNA FUCKING REGRET FOR MESSING WITH MY FUCKING BABY MY FUCKING COMPUTER
U DONT FUCKING MESS WITH THAT SHIT
NEVER
NEVER FUCK WITH MY TECH
NEVER
AND ON TOP OF IT ALL MY FRIEND FUCKING LANCE, BEFORE THIS ALL HAPPENED I ASKED HIM TO FUCKING HELP ME OUT TO STUDY
cause he is fucking pro when it comes to studying and Im like one day before study and pass it
and he studys like for weeks, tbh that makes me fucking pro - NOT HIM but I wanna be more like him fucking organized and all that shit 2 weeks before exam! I want that.
HE IS IN FUCKING CHINA BTW so he wrote on the fucking iphone how to fucking to do and I was LIKE WOW DUDE THATS SO FUCKING PRO
AND I said il put it on my blog cause I find it funny and he keeps fucking asking every time I LOG to skype WHEN WHEN WHEN AND OMG IT PISSES ME EVEN MORE LIKE FFS
life lol
Life can fuck with you in so many ways
FUCK YOU LANCE TOOO
FUCK YOUUUUUUU AND HERE IS YOUR FUCKING SHIT
ARE U FUCKING HAPPY NOW?!!!!!!!!
ARE YOU FUCKING HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!111
RAGE ALL OVER THIS FUCKING PAGEEEEE
also I DIDNT SPELL CHECK ANY OF THIS SHIT
U GOTTA PROBLEM WITH THAT
THEN FUCK YOU 2
ZIXX OUT
FUCK YOU LIFE
So, I am chilling on my friends sofa and browsing Skype to look with whom could I chat for a free minute. Then this guy called Zixx who claims to be a legend in games but certainly was only in wow asks me how to learn a few A4 pages in 4hours. Well, I helped him of course with very basic things which in my opinion primats should know after the age of 16. So, I reffer to him this post on how to start study.
First of all Rule No.: 1
Motivation and wish to actually start doing something. From my personal point of view is that you can't really use more than 20% of your capabilities if you are thinking about the beautiful Chinese girl you saw last day or your League of Legends window are opened and every minute someone tries to invite you to play "a game". Like I remember every time Zixx invites me to play his called "one match" which we start at 6pm I am most likely finished at 4am and god damn it I dont even know at the end how many matches have we played. I don't know how is it called
but when (in my words) "your ass is on fire" you can use 200% of your abilities. But if you decided to turn off Skype, League of Legends and temporarily put that Chinese girl photo in your brain bin then congrats you have just completed step 1 and now you only need not to be lazy and start your work. If you are lazy then I am sorry but scientists haven't found a medicine from being lazy. Maybe a cup of coffee or 1 hard slap on yourself could actually help abit to take you out of laziness swamp. Let's move to next rule.
Rule No.: 2 Planning (Congratulations Zixx you made it that far to rule number 2 and I am proud of you)
So, like my BPM (Building Planning and Management) teacher would say: "Everything starts from good planning"
First of all rush to the shop to buy a notebook with calendar or use a piece of paper which you can actually put into the system of your own. Remember being to able follow your steps and systemise everything will give you not only a huge opportunity in managing your things faster but also gives you an option to go back and correct mistakes. The principle is similar like you check the combat log in wow which says how much damage you took from bleeds or curses and who was the guy who owned Zixx. Every line is marked in different color but personally I don't like to play with colorful pens anymore so I am always using a table with the things I need to do, the priorities, sequence or any other stuff which you think is important. You will find the best system to fit your own subject and needs by the time you get used to do the tables. So planning in my own experience is that everything refers to your the time spend to do something. If you are able to calculate how much time will you need to do one or the other activity soon you will be successful person who doesn't worry if he has time in his scedule to invite that Chinese girl for a dinner or no. This is another key to win. So to summarize this: "Train and be able to list down your activities and create a system on your own. Don't forget that mostly everything refers to time."
Rule No.: 3
You are ready to start working on your stuff. Your Skype and LoL is off, Chinese girl in the bin and you have your all stuff planed so stick to your plan and pay attention.
Otherwise, you will find yourself doing things very slowly and it's better to spend your time on fun when it's time and finish your work fast when you are focused so you don't blame yourself that you have studied so long and actually achieved nothing.
Keep working and track your progress it is also important key to win in this case. If you keep tracking that means you are better at planning. If you a better at planning that means you are more focused on your things. And if your are focused then this is it you just need to systematically work and you will achieve your success.
*Disclaimer: This is my first blog and I know you will find it not planed. It's because I haven't planned it and I just spilled my thoughts sentence by sentence. I hope you understood the main idea. Leave me a comment if you liked it or not and if I should continue writing blogs. I am a student in the 3rd grade of Constructing Architect education. I could write more things about it if someone is interested to read. So, keep studying guys and have fun!
