Babybird

Gosh there are things in life that I hate so fucking much that I cant even put into words. I hate to fucking lose in games. I despise it so much , it makes me so angry, so disappointment , so passive, there are not enough words that are negative to describe my mood after losing a game. Worst thing when it comes to losing is that games, well the ones I play are mostly team effort so sometimes u will get a lose even when u played a good game, your team mates had a bad day and its gg. Thats the one that stings even more, thats the one that makes me wanna get a fucking knife and stab myself 20 times in an eye just to have pain in my head instead the thoughts like
"How the hell did I just lose this fucking game?" "Wtf just happened?" "Who fucked up?" "Why am I playing with this shit players?"
Then the shit begins, sometimes its better that it is your fault. You sucked and the team lost because of you, I prefer that to the part where I play best I can and then team fucking fails me. Cause u cant go bitching to them, even if you would love to do that. Like fuck I could yell all over them and make them fucking cry, thats what I wanna do but hey u cant go off like that on somebody just cause they fucking suck in game. Especially if they are girls...
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Thing is...
Nothing 
Fuck this Im gonna rage all over this damn page.
I wanna tell you how much u fucking sucked, Im doing my best here and there u are walking down the fucking forest when everbody is fucking mia (missing in action) and u go WOAAAAA 3 CAME FOR ME AND KILLED ME. WTF
FUCKING NOOB, WHY THE FUCK U WENT INTO THE FUCKING BUSH ALONE WHERE EVERYBODY IS FUCKING MIA. DONT U HAVE A FUCKING BRAIN! THINK FUCKER, FUCKING THINK, USE THAT FUCKING BRAIN OF YOURS, U HAVE IT FOR A FUCKING REASON!!!11
DONT TELL ME ITS YOUR FUCKING BAD DAY, GO FUCKING IN THERE AND GET THE SHIT DONE, SORT YOUR FUCKING LIFE! STOP BEING A FUCKING NOOB! I DIDNT TELL YOU TO FUCKING ATTACK WHEN U SEE 3 GUYS, U FUCKING WENT THERE IN! WHY THE FUCKING U PLAYING A CHAR U DIDNT PLAY FOR A FUCKING WEEK!? COME ONNN
sigh...
OK I understand this is not making any sense so lets step back and let me explain you what exactly happened to tick me off.
I was playing this game league of legends like 1 year ago and then I hooked up with my gf and all, she wanted to play a game with me. To spend time with me and all that bullshit gfs wanna do with there bfs. Spend time together. More like fucking suck and being a noob/then annoy u to hell cause hey she is your gf so u gotta play wiv her. Make you lose all the games cause she wanna try something new!!! U see at the beginning of the game I was playing with my bro Agita who I meet playing world of warcraft. Agita and me are tight, we so tight that if he needs a fucking kidney, I would give him the damn kidney. He even came to Croatia to get wasted with me and talk about  good times and all that bs bros do.
ANYWAY so Agita, my gf and me playing league of legends. Or should I say me and Agita trying to fucking teach my gf how to play a fucking game. Took us like 3 months to actually make my gf get the game. Cant even say she plays bad now but she has this fucking noob moments when she goes trying a new champion she cant fucking play at all and she thinks she is fucking pro at it. I told her to fucking go play a practice game if she wants to try the damn chars but why the fuck would she listen to me. Why would she? Not like I fucking played games all my life? Dont listen to me...
 Today, we were playing a ranked game with my friend Holy. She cool, she can be a fucking noob from time to time too but mostly she plays good. I guess all girls have that moments, they not stable, one game they play good and another they like go completely fucking noob on me.
We starting the game and they ban my main char and my gfs main char, they didnt ban Holy char. Still holy says she gonna play another char which I know she is not rly good at but w/e. I choose my main and go all positive about this. My gf goes this char called sing who is like so op but she cant play him good. She just dosent play him at all, like this was the first time I saw her playing it in like a month. W/e tho I keep my mouth shout since the char is op.
So there is me, the fucking legend playing a fucking game with 2 girls ( 2 NOOBS ) that you could say they are trying some new shit in a ranked match. This is the shit. Its a ranked game, u dont try out crap, u choose what u play the best and thats it. There is no, I could play this and maybe that. No! Just shut the fuck up and play the shit u been playing all the time, the char that bores u to death but u play him good and we gonna fucking win. But noooo,we talking about girls here. They have to fucking try something new, they have to have fucking fun. Shit I dont get is how the fuck is it fun to lose?
So im cool, Im still fucking cool after holy died 5 fucking times and my fucking gf didnt kill anybody. 
Doing my shit, trying to help them out. At mid game I realize how much other team sucks when they let me kill all the mobs. Only 1 guy on other team plays good and he is fucking owning us all cause im fucking play with 2 girls that are trying some fucking shit out in a ranked match. 
I am on top all alone, killed 3 guys and all is good I can see we gonna win if they sort there shit. Then Holy starts to bitch about a guy killing... Then the shit starts.
They continue to fucking die and I keep going to help them and from 0 deaths I go to 5 deaths cause Im helping them out and they keep fucking failing.
Just one fucking example. My gf is chasing this other guy who had zero mana and like half hp and she is trying to kill him and Holy is coming from the back of that guy. So the guy goes up and then u have a choice he can either go down left or down right and holy and my gf both go fucking right. Guy ofc, he is not a fucking noob goes left and escapes them. And im looking at that from fucking spawning pool since im fucking dead trying to save there asses cause they went 2 on 3 again on them while I was up and then I came in too late while they ran away and left me to fucking die.
I go ... wtf... fml... why do I play with girls.
Then they start typing which pisses me off even more, u cant fucking play a game if u chatting with ppl. U have to get to that lev where u thinking what to do next and u dont have time to fucking chat. But no Holy says to my gf she is gonna play another character next time. My gf is all like, ya he owns. In that time Im in the middle getting fucking by 2 guys trying to run away and not getting any help at all.
AND THIS IS THE POINT IM FUCKING CRAZY NOW, I WANNA FUCKING RAGE I WANNA TELL THEM TO FUCK OFF, TO GO FUCKING PLAY TETRIS CAUSE OBVIOUSLY THIS GAME IS NOT FOR THEM. TETRIS COULD FUCKING WORK FOR THEM, U GOT THE DAMN BLOCKS AND U GOT THE SLOW MOTION AND EASY U GO AND GO. YEA GO PLAY FUCKING TETRIS, DONT FUCK UP ME WITH YOUR FUCKING NOOB SKILL SHIT. OMG
AND WHY THE FUCK U CHAT I MEAN U GOT THE FUCKING CHAT ALL OVER GOOGLE, GO ON GOOGLE FUCKING GOOGLE THE CHAT AND THEN GO CHAT
DONT CHAT WHILE U PLAYING A GAME...
DIDN'T MENTION I GOT LAG CAUSE IM FUCKING PLAYING ON AMERICAN SERVERS SO I GOT STUCK COUPLE OF TIMES LUCKY I DIDNT FUCKING DIE, IF I DID I WOULD PUT MY FIST INTO THIS FUCKING MONITOR AND END MY SUFFERING


girl gamers...
Such a pro like me gets a gf thats a complete noob am I lucky or what.
fml
Im just so fucking annoyed.

I hate losing.
Im gonna go kill myself now
Bye cruel world