Roger Sanchez - Again (original mix) HQ

As most of you know or dont know by now, I am single again. Yes I know what u thinking.
Zixx u broke up with your gf for the trillionth time, u getting back together again and we all know it.
Well u cant be more fucking wrong tbh, Im fucking done. Im done with all the bullshit that involves being in a relationship.
Where did all go wrong? Thats a hard one, like u know when u play games and you lose there is a reason why u lost. Somebody either fucked up or somebody just cant play for shit. There has to be some fucking reason u know, u cant say well they were fucking better and they owned us, fuck no. Shit dosent go down like that, nobody is better then you. Somebody else fucked up, not you.
Tbh the reason why my relationship got fucked is girls in general I guess. 
Girls these days they fucking crazy, and my one was no different.
U know I tell ppl all these problems I had with my gf and they just go, ya bro Iv been there, had that shit fucking up my life too. U now alone bro, this is normal, all are like that. They fucking nuts homie, u cant talk to them when they in that rage mode, why you even trying to explain shit. Just a waste of fucking time u know Zixx, just either accept it or fucking ditch her.
But nah dude, Zixx dosent listen to other fucking noobs. U know he thinks he can conquer the god damn world all by himself. He can make this happen, he will be a good bf and she will be a good gf and we will live happy ever after.
How I was fucking wrong. Oh my days how I was fucking wrong.
U know I was with my girl for about 2 years and would be totally dishonest of me to say we didnt have good moments and good times. We did u know, but we also had shit loads of bad moments.
I am here to talk about all the bad moments. 
Every fucking one of them.
Jealousy is a bitch, like I remember I found it cute in the beginning u know. Like my gf is fucking jealous, so fucking cool u know. She thinks somebody will steal me or some shit from her. 
How cute is that. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
Mistake fucking 1 in my 2 year relationship. There is nothing fucking cute about your gf being jealous. Seriously if I was in my right mind when the first time she mention about some other girl thats looking at me, or some other girl that I wanna fuck. I would run like there is no fucking tomorrow.
Or get a big ass mace and fucking club her so much till she ends up in hospital knowing that next time she does it she is gonna fucking die BY MY FUCKING HAND! Thats where I fucked up, I made it ok for her to come to me with her jealousy bullshit and harass me with it.
I thought it was cute. Fucking laughed, blushed and was all like how cute is that let me kiss u, u know I only love you. Im yours. Never gonna leave you, all I want is you.
Mistakes,mistakes...
You see girls dont hear anything u say when they are in that jealousy mode, u can say all the good things and it doesn't even come to there head. But boy u say one thing fucking wrong - and u gonna be hearing about that for the next 2 years. They gonna repeat it so it sounds way fucking more then its important. Then they will tell you how wrong u are, how all her friends think u are wrong and then they will name all your friends that think thats wrong too, if you name your friends that think you right - she just gonna spit all over them. If u still fucking holding your grounds and trying to explain it to her for the 10000000 time. She will throw the bomb at u, the bomb.
Now u know when the bomb is about to be thrown when she doesn't look at u, like she looks on the sides. Holds her breath and then looks at u back and then she goes saying it "Do you even love me?" trying not to cry. U know u fucked when she asked that question cause there is no answer to it. But ofc u are a fucking dumb ass and u think its just a simple question so u answer it.
Saying yes, thinking like why did she even asked you that.
That yes sends u to another circle of hell, u just stepped into a trap and u didnt even realize thats how fucking dumb u are.
IF U FUCKING LOVE ME you wouldn't be doing this to me, cant u see how I feel about this, u dont even care. Its all same to you as long as u are happy. What about me? Do you even care how I feel? If you loved me you would change this, not lie to me about it.
Yea girls... U see for some time I thought something is wrong with me, like maybe I am the one that is rly fucking everything up but then I woke up one day and I saw shit how it is.
And let me tell you my friend. Girls are pure fucking evil. They will eat you alive and they not gonna end your fucking life cause no, they want you to be WITH THEM all miserable for the rest of your life.
Remember this one time I was at my friends party with my gf OFC. We chilling, talking, Im having a good time u know, the wine is free, got my cigarettes. What can go fucking wrong. 
She smiling, the ppl im talking to they smiling, U know we just having a propa good time and then.
Out of fucking nowhere with a smile on her face, she kisses me on the cheek and whispers in my ear. You look at that girl just once more again, and I will fucking kill you, also if she smiles at you one more time I will fucking rip her fake boobies and that fucking ugly face out of her with a knife.
Now obviously you are too dumb to see the pattern. U are stunned, fucking cc on you. You dont know what just happen, u didnt see it coming. U were walking down the street and suddenly 10 PPL JUMPED FROM A BUSH YELLING DEMACIIIIIIAAAAA.
But the shit is even worse, there are no 10 ppl, just ONE GIRL. Your gf, next to you, mad as hell smiling like everything is alright. The girl on your right that u are not supposed to look at is asking you a question and u already see how its going down. U answer it, and u are about to die. Dunno when, maybe in your sleep, or maybe right this moment.
So you do what every guy would do, you ignore it and say u going to take a piss. 
At the bathroom u looking yourself in the mirror thinking, oh my fucking god how did I end up here and am I gonna die now? is this it? my life ends like this for reals? So u slap some water on yourself and u walk out all fucking happy and shit cause u drunk as a motha focka. Then when u coming back to the table you feel her eyes on you, she is looking at your eyes just waiting for you to look at shit u not supposed to look. Eye of the tiger look. U kiss her and u pray to god even if u dont believe that she wont make a scene in front of all your friends and embarrass you. Evening is over and u going home and u happy, nothing went wrong, now all you need to do is listen to her bitch about everything for the rest of the trip home. Then listen to her bitch before you fall a sleep, then ofc when she bitches in the morning and maybe for another week about that and then u fine. You saved. Was a close one tho. Never mention the party or the girl u were talking to and u gonna be just fine.
Girls...
Ow god, now this next thing Is rly embarrassing to write. U know I always believed that a man should not ever hit a women. But what happend when the women hits a man?
Remember we had a fight and I went to a bar to just let her cool off, was summer and I was sitting outside drinking my bear, smoking a cig just chilling and thinking wtf happend why did she had to yell at me for nothing. Then out of fucking nowhere she comes all fucking storming and comes to me tells me Im a fucking asshole, slaps me and walks the fuck away. Waitress comes out and she like are you ok, should I call the police? Im like wtf... Nah dont call police, thats my gf, no worry ITS NORMAL. So since its a small town, shit spread and then I get couple of msgs on fb ppl asking me did I get slapped by my gf?
That wasn't the end of it tho, she slapped me 2 more times and ofc I forgiven her cause Im a dumb fuck and I loved her. HOW FUCKING STUPID CAN I BE?! I SHOULD HAVE TAKE MY MACE AGAIN AND BEAT HER TO DEATH RIGHT FUCKING THERE!!11111111111
I remember before I was reading in the news how husband kills his wife, or bf kills his gf, I never understood why that happen. Now I do. When somebody fucks with you for such a long time and at one point u just blow and somehow 20 years in jail dosent seem so bad considering you are already have a lifetime sentence with your wife. 
Ow how I was naive and how stupid I was, but you learn u know, sometimes u got to fuck up in life so many times to understand that thats what u dont want or to realize what you want from life. Thats how it is.
One of my mistakes was that I gave my gf all the passwords, like for facebook, dailybooth, youtube...
You know I didnt care, I was like I love you, I got nothing to hide, here u go hunny. Gosh seriously how fucking dumb can I be,other mistakes was that I was a fucking friend with her on all the social sites. Oh my days, just fucking kill me.
You see it all started unimportant, thats how girls are you know. They say shit that seems like its w/e but actually its very fucking important and if u dont realize in time you about to suck a big fat black dick and u better fucking love it.
Kinda remember the first thing, like girls leaving messages on my wall, my friends over the net u know. Not the real life girl - friends cause lets be honest I dont have any.
She was like uhm whos that, like do you need her on fb? Why is she msging you? Why did you like her picture?Do u think she is sexy? Are you attracted to her. I think she is in love with you. Def she is in love with you. You shouldn't have the ppl that u think they are sexy and u are attracted to them, they in love with you and u even supporting it by liking there pictures. Its not healthy for our relationship so how about me and you sit down and lets delete ALL YOUR FUCKING GIRLS THAT I THINK THAT ARE THREAT TO ME CAUSE IM A CRAZY FUCKING BITCH AND I DO NOT TRUST YOU.
Yea and suddenly poof, u know she is wrong and u dont like her doing this but u love her so w/e.
She says if I dont know them then like why I should have them on fb, u know I dont even talk to them so like she is gonna delete them, who cares right. WELL WAIT THE FUCK
wait wait, how come she deleted just the girls, I dont talk to shit loads of guys on my facebook but she doesn't have a problem with that.  Wtf?
Yea bro, its very simple cause u not gonna cheat with her with a guy, but u will cheat with her with some girl that lives in fucking russia in sybir all alone in the woods, miles the fuck away from.
Makes perfect fucking sense. Girls and logic, u just cant put that together in a sentence even tho I just did.
Then she goes on this whole fucking crusade to explain me that I dont need ppl on fb I dont know or talk to and I should just remove the ones I dont talk to myself. Its all pointless and shit, so if its so pointless how come she cares so much about it? CAUSE ITS NOT, SHE WANTS CONTROL! SHE IS AFTER U! Delete all the females cause the only girl in your life should be her and your mom.
U see if i was smart, the first time she would mention facebook friends that she has a problem with, I would fucking take a big fucking mace and send her to a fucking hospital again. Thats how girls learn you know, cause explaining it to them for hours and hours that you only love them and they have nothing to worry about that they can trust u and shit. That method does not work, trust me... I tryed it, I was talking with her for 1 year all the time about the same shit all day fucking long, every day and then tomorrow she gets mad again and I have to explain all over the fuck again. 
Ul have more chance to explain to wall fucking quantum physic then to a gf that u only want her and u not gonna cheat on her. NO FUCKING JOKE.
Now my shit got rly serious and at some point without me realizing it got out of control, I was watching music videos and she was fucking mad at me cause girl was half naked and dancing. I mean wtf. Who is not half naked today on music videos like what the hell, now Im not allowed to watch music videos. She didn't say it like that, she said watch it when Im not with you and since she is 99% of the time with me then its kinda fucked up that I need to wait for her to leave to watch a music video.
Also watching movie with my gf was rly enjoyable in the beginning until she didn't start questioning me if I find the actress hot or pretty or w/e.
Now in the beginning we agreed we gonna be honest and shit, another fucking trap I fall into it without realizing it. NEVER BE HONEST! NEVER FUCKING EVER!!!
If u watching a movie with a girl and u wanna watch it till the end without her fucking bitching or yelling at you every time the actress you find pretty comes into the scene then dont fucking say u find her attractive. Fuck the honesty and everything, she cant handle it. Seriously better to lie to her all the fucking time so she wouldn't mention it every fucking time.
I didn't know that ofc, so being a dumb fuck as I am I WAS BEING FUCKING HONEST cause I thought thats what relationship is about, TO NOT FUCKING LIE!
That fucking worked rly awesome for me. Crying, yelling, am I not enough for u? Do u have to think about the other girls? Why dont I think that somebody else is hot? Are u even happy with my looks? Do I sexually excite u in bed?Would u change something on me? U know that I will never have her body? Im not some fucking bimbo that dosent nothing all her life and just goes to gym and eats nothing then goes and records a movie from time to time?DO YOU EVEN LOVE ME? OR U LOVE THAT BITCH ON FUCKING MOVIE?
It didnt take me too long to figure that every time she asks me do I feel that this girl is hot I should say NO FUCK NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! then we come to another problem, now if you say no, she thinks u fucking lying which u are ofc since u dont wanna deal with all the bullshit that goes on with you saying yes. Now she wanna dig it out of you, she doesn't want you to say no, she wants you to say yes cause she thinks its a yes. So she fucking does everything she can, she goes on Google then goggles the actress and keep asking me over and over do i find her sexy like Im gonna change my answer if she asks the question 50 times. Well fuck you and fuck her 2 cause now I know. U see I got more brain usage trough the relationship and now I will stick to no, no matter the fuck what.
ANOTHER FUCKING MISTAKE!
This is where I made a mistake, now she dosent believe and when a girl doesn't believe then she fucking does everything to find out are u dishonest with her. ITS BETTER TO SAY YES. LISTEN to her bitch about it for 2 - 3 days and bitch at it every time that actress is on youtube or tv, u not watching any new movies with that actress with her but u done. Thats it, she spits on her looks and personality every time u mention something remotely about her and ofc the actress is the worst  bitch ever (hitler is nothing compared to her) doing heroine and all cause all actress do heroine ofc. THATS IT.
BUT U STICK WITH NO. AND THEN IT NEVER ENDS, IT DOSENT LAST FOR 2-3 DAYS, IT GETS MENTION EVERY FIGHT THAT SHE DOES NOT BELIEVE U, THAT U ARE A LIENG BASTARD, YOU ARE LIKE ALL OTHER MAN, U JUST WANNA FUCK SOMETHING SKINNY IN A BIKINI. 
She doesn't watch a movie anymore, no she couldn't care less about a movie, now she is watching your face expressions every time that actress makes an appearance. U ARE THE FUCKING MOVIE for her. U better not make any sudden moves cause boy ow boy u getting fucked again AND AGAIN.
U cant win bro, its like you set out to lose from the begging, there is no hope. Its not about giving up here, very simple - SHE COULDN'T CARE LESS what u saying, she just says her shit all the time and thats why u can not reason with her. She pretending she listening ya, but she not rly, u think she hearing what u saying? FUCK NO BRO! She is thinking WHAT SHE IS GONNA SAY when u finally shut up with all your lies!
girls...
The thing is, what they want is to fuck your brain up so much that you dont even think if somebody looks good or not, cause if u just think about it, they will smell it and then u fucked!
They want to freeze your brain in that moment before the thought actually comes and put themselves in there YELLING CRYING AND DOING ALL THE NASTY SHIT THEY CAN DO so when that thought comes to you, its gets ripped out of your head by the person u love so much sitting next to you. Cause u know that even thinking about it can get u in trouble that lasts for minutes,hours,days...
I tell you,somewhere it went all rly wrong, dunno when. Maybe cause they left the kitchen and were allowed to vote and now they chase the carriers and think they can rule the fucking world?
Well they fucking cant! Not with that 1 week of craziness every month thats going on down there.
I tell you, when you are with a girl in a relationship. She doesn't need to tell you that she is on her period. U fucking feel that evil coming every month. I tell you bro, u fucking feel it in your bones, she doesn't need to tell you that u not gonna get any pussy this week. Nah its like I come to her and I just go I understand, its coming. I know all good. Then she stands all like wtf? How do you know?
Then whats all this mind fucking is that she even dares to ask me how I know, when yesterday she was fucking crying all day and saying how I dont fucking understand her and how we not meant for each other and how this life is shit. What am I doing with her, with her life, my life. Crying, yelling... Telling shit about everybody and anything.
She asks me how I know? ffs ALL THE NEIGHBORS KNOW TOO, not just me. 
That week of hell, bro I tell you. There is nothing u can do. Nothing. Thats why I dont trust a women on her fucking period in charge of a country with a nuclear arsenal. The whole world is about to go to hell if she gets just one call on her big red phone that shes not liking.
The only way to actually to deal with this is to hide, as much as possible and ignore her. Hug her and just try to be there without saying anything at all, cause every word u say will just make it worse. EVERY WORD will make her more crazy.
U fucking duct tape your fucking mouth if u cant shut up and just be there. Be there for what, to listen to her bitch cause if u dont listen to her bitch then she will be going on about how u not listening when she talks to you and how u dont understand her at all and thats even fucking harder to listen then the bitching itself.
It just has to pass...U got to sit it out in your bunker,and just wait for the storm to end. Nothing u can do about it, I heard there are pills for it but gosh if u bring that up. Not even going there. Pills = bad fucking idea to mention. k?  Just trust me bro, dont even fucking try.

One thing I had going here was that I could run from her, u know like she goes to her parents and she is on pms and Im like yea ofc hunny il come. Thinking fuck no, not till this shit storm passes then we will fucking see each other. FREEDOMMMMMM FUCK YEAAAAAAAAA FINNALY 
GOOOOOOO MEEEEEE
wohooooooooooooooooo
Then if you fuck up something and she like finds out, then she will all smart come to you and be like I KNOW WHAT U FUCKING DID! HOW COULD U?
AND U LIKE WTFFFF WHAT DID I DO which just makes it even worse, if u werent a fucking dumb ass you would just admit it say u fucking sorry and then move the fuck on. But no u fucking dont know what u did so u like - I dont understand and which makes it worse, does not matter its the truth - BUT IN her mind it makes it even fucking worse cause not only u lieng about it but u pretending to be all innocent and shit. U FUCKED U FUCKED! JUST ADMIT THE MISTAKE EVEN IF U DONT KNOW WHAT U DID AND MOVE THE FUCK ON!

I actually in the begging of the relationship, I thought like 900000000 % sure this was fucking it u know. Like I remember when I went out and I called my gf and I was like - going out with my friends to drink and shit and just have fun. She was like ah ok hun, u have fun and call me so I know you are ok. Just dont drink too much and take care of yourself.
And then I was like FUCKKKKKKK! I got the best gf ever u know, she not bitching or anything WOW, LIKE AWESOME. Yea thats how the beginning was...
U see I was dumb enough to actually think that thats how its gonna be every time and all the time.
Ima speed up shit and Ima tell u how my last going out with my friend went.
Went along line of this... Hello? Hey, I CAN HEAR GIRLS! U HAVING FUN OUT WITH YOUR STUPID FRIENDS?DID U SEE SOMEBODY U LIKE? ARE THERE ENOUGH SLUTS AROUND? YEA KEEP FEEDING YOUR EYES? IM NEVER BE LIKE THEM? ALL DRUNK SLUTS! CHEAT ON THERE BFS AND SHIT? DID U CHEAT ON ME ALREADY? FOUND SOMEBODY U LIKE? AH I DONT LOVE U ANYMORE? FUCK YOU, GO CHEAT ON ME IF U WANT TO! WHATEVER U DONT DESERVE ME! U ARE SUCH A FUCKING ALCOHOLIC 
ALL YOU DO IS DRINK! DO U EVER THINK ABOUT YOUR LIFE? U THINK THIS IS LIFE WHAT U HAVE? WHY AM I WITH? U DONT DESERVE ME! IM SO BETTER THEN THIS!
FUCK U 
CALLS IN 5 MINUTES
IM SORRY, I LOVE YOU I JUST DONT GET WHY U NEED TO GO OUT WITHOUT ME, LIKE I THOUGHT WE GONNA SHARE EVERYTHING, TOGETHER U AND ME ONLY
IM SORRY ITS OK, HAVE FUN WE WILL TALK TOMORROW
U do know as soon as u hang up she will send u a text msg, something along the lines hope u fucking find some slut so she has to put up with your shit cause I dont want to anymore.
Yea and omg when she goes out, well u know I dont like when my gf goes out but I was trying to be a good bf which was fucking a mistake again. How the hell was I supposed to know?
You see when she goes out and u gonna be all like well have fun just be careful that something doesn't happen to u and shit and dont go alone somewhere in the dark. MISTAKE BRO
FUCKING HUGE ONE
Cause u see u not jealous that she is going out, she is going out with a bar full of guys and if u trust her then u are fucked. Cause trusting her means u not afraid u gonna lose her. SO like FROM That she concludes that u dont love her since u not worried that she is going out and she is gonna be around guys. SO now u rly fucked. Cause next question she is gonna throw at u is the rly fucked up one. You ok with me going out? You say yes not knowing whats coming. DO you think Im not sexy enough, u think nobody will hit on me, u not worried? And u like nah nah I think u sexy ofc they will hit at u, I just trust u thats all. Now she goes like nah u dont fucking trust me, u playing a game now u wanna see if I will go out even after all u said just now. U want me to feel guilty that Im going out now cause u not going out. NOW U HERE ARE LIKE WTF WTF
WTF WTF WTF WTF WTFFFFFFFFFFFF WTFFFFFFFFFFFF
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
Women and there logic. Makes no fucking sense, thats why I KNOW THIS WILL NOT MAKE ANY SENSE TO YOU WHATSOEVER CAUSE U A NORMAL FUCKING GUY!
But if u wanna do the right thing, the right thing would be to ban her from going out. U need to be jealous cause they the only way she will understand u fucking care about her. It doesn't matter that u wanna do the good thing and let her go out and have fun. NO NO THATS ALL WRONG! U GOTTA BE ALL LIKE, U not going out, Why would I want you to be surrounded by all the drunk guys and shit. U got me ffs, u not going out thats it. End of story, stay home, if u wanna go out then u gonna come with me and thats it. I trust u but I dont trust them.
Then she will be like all against it, that she is not your dog and all that bs and u need to trust her but as soon as she hangs up > she will be all like AWWWWWWWWWWW
HE DOES CARE ABOUT ME, HE RLY LOVES ME, I was so dumb for thinking he is not afraid to lose me.
I know,you dont get it! Nor do I, tbh but thats how the fuck it is. The bigger bastard u are the more she thinks u love her and the more she will love u and WHATS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS
the less she will bitch at u for stupid shit.
U still thinking wtf am I talking about, boy I tell you better fucking pay attention now before the shit gets real for you and then u gonna be like me. Fucking single, 2 years of fighting with your gf behind you and only shit u got from it that u are a bit wiser and now no girl will fuck around wiv u again.
Skip 2 years and save yourself shit loads of nerves going down the drain, fucking sleepless nights and a lot of yelling for NOTHING.

Also when we had fights, u know I would switch my phone off when she rly pissed me off, airplane mode ftw. Then she calls all your friends and shit and explains them what went wrong, what did u do wrong. Then friends call you and be like did u rly do that, fucking bunch of lies - just she could get to your ass u know. She cant get to you, so she uses other ppl to get to me. Tactics tactics - mastered it all.





But there is good part about it, u rly know who your friends are after that. Cause u see the friends dont give a fuck about you, will stand on her side u know and tell u, you are a bad man and curse u to death. Turkish curse I have on me now cause one of my friends took her side, not to mention that my gf cursed me too. Also my grandma the other day when I pissed her off.  Collecting curses, rly fucking awesome, good thing NOBODY CAN TOUCH ME. Got fucking magic immunity all the way.
Friends that  do care about you will hear your side of the story and wont believe the bs she serving them, bros for life<3.
One more thing, u know girls they expect for you to back them out even when they are wrong when it comes to other ppl. Just cause they are your gf they think u should stand by there side, fuck that if u wrong Im not gonna be on your side u know, doesn't matter how much I love you.

Now I had this stupid thing in myself that I will not give up on the person till I love her, but love has nothing to do this. You see the love for her still didnt pass in me. That will take time but in the end it will pass. The point here is how much shit u can take from somebody you love, how many times u can forgive them when they come to you and say they sorry they fucked up?
For me the answer is rly simple now, only 1 per situation cause everybody have a right to fuck up once but since she keept repeating the mistakes, I kept telling myself Im not giving up on her no matter what since I love her. Love has nothing to do with it.
I was wrong, mistakes mistakes. Some girls can not learn simply and they can not learn when u say dont do this once. They have to do it 1000 more times and they still dont get why u getting mad.
Nothing to do with love, all about respect. U cant hear me say NEVER AGAIN do that then fuck you and fuck her 2.


Love? What is love, a feeling of happiness, something unique, something u can not fake. Something which has it all but demands little for it. Beauty in simplicity yet complicated in its beauty.
Love is everything, yet it can be nothing at all. It makes us search for it making us feel like we are not full without it, like we need a person we love in true sense of the word to spend life with her. For our life to be it, but what if we dont rly need love if its all just our fucking biological material fucking with us. I know I can live without love but question is it all worth it and do I want too? Living the life for yourself or for US/ maybe to be truly happy we need to define ourself trough love and pain to rly understand what happiness is.
Then there is relationship between a man and a women (game) which is a fucking battle for domination and struggle to keep it going no matter what. To work it out, to come to some sort of fucking agreement about the view on life. To fight, to understand each other, to not be able to live without each other. But still there has to be some borders, some rules even there, it cant be anarchy. There has to be the things u can not do, I do not talk about cheating - talking about talking about problems among couples which I dont think I had cause she never listened. She never tryed to understand, she wanted it her way and then when I WENT ALL IN - I wanted it my way and I was stronger. Then all came apart. Always kept telling her that outside factor can not fuck us up, but u can destroy us. She never listened, was always more scared of other girls. In the end she should have only fear herself, mistakes mistakes. Girls... Dont think they ever listen.
For me I dont have a fixed point what love is, for me its all in clouds and all is open for discussion, but girls I think they have some things prerecorded in there head how it should be and thats why it makes it so hard. 
I dont know what I want from my next gf but I know now what I dont want from her. Guess I had to go trough all of this to realize some things that I did not know before. Learned how to play a game now, learned how to win. Tho that kid in me that believes in ultimate love dosent want it to be a game/dont wanna win or lose/ that kid just wants to love and believe, wants to be open but the problem  is - it can only stop being a game when u with somebody that doesn't wanna play the game. Live and let live does not apply there, it goes kill or be killed. 
I guess its all about finding that person that u dont have to play games with, that you will understand each other, you will rise above it. Make it something that can not be put in words.
Maybe...and maybe its all just overfuckingrated and we are chasing the rainbow...
I dont know, I know that each person has to decide for themselves. For me - would rather die soloing life then being together with somebody that doesn't fit me. If all girls are these crazy then fuck it. Im going solo on this life thing.

There is a disclaimer to do this, Im not saying all the girls are like this but fuck MOST OF THEM ARE, like I hear story's from ppl saying the same shit.

Girls,u good in bed and if they love you more then they should then they just go fucking crazy as hell.
Why is that? Fuck I know. Love fucks with there heads?
I dont think that question can rly be answered, maybe one day somebody will get a Nobel prize for that. Till then ALL I can say is, draw a line the first day you going out with a girl, dont let her move your ass around. Dont be a pussy like me, dont do the mistakes I did. U the boss and be like it, got to be a warrior. She has to know where her place is, no fucking about. She wont listen, fucking dump her and save yourself some time and go find the one that is not crazy, If there are still some left.
I mean the world is a big place u know, there has to be one girl out there that is single and beautiful, wont bitch at you when u play games(wont tell u that u wasting your life again), will be loyal and support u - wind in your back and all that, be crazy when it comes to sex and just like be honest with u, wont cry for bs reasons and wont yell at u for every little thing. Have an awesome personality and like 10 zillion bucks on her bank account. I dont ask that much right? Also one more thing when I say something to her, she listens!!!!!!
To tell you the truth I always attracted some crazy fucking girls, its like Im a fucking magnet for problematic girls.
WELL FROM TODAY IM DONE WITH THAT SHIT
YOU ALL CRAZY BITCHES CAN FUCK OFF 
For all those normal girls that are NORMAL, AND not crazy I apologize if I in anyway offended you with my bs. Dont take it too serious xD

no more psycho gfs
fuck that
seriously
99 problems
bitch aint one


Zixx out
one love ;)